a few thoughts on anti-racism and how we can do better

blackout image for black lives matter

There’s so much anger and sadness in the world today, and rightfully so. Up until this point, I’ve been pretty quiet- on my blog, on social media, and online in general. 

Part of that is because I just didn’t know what to say. Honestly, I still don’t.

But I recognize that silence is part of the problem. 

About two weeks ago, George Floyd was killed by a police officer. Another unarmed black man murdered by a system that’s finally being exposed as the inherently white supremicist institution it’s always been. 

It’s disgusting, upsetting, and vile.

But that’s not what I’m here to talk about.

Not because it doesn’t deserve attention, but because so many others are covering the issue in greater detail and with more expertise than I have to offer here. If you’re not already doing so, I urge you to educate yourself. 

Watching these videos is a good place to start:

Trevor Noah’s brilliant comments on the social contract
John Oliver on the broken police system

Examining my own role in racism

I’ve never thought of myself as racist. I still don’t. You probably don’t either.

But recent events and the national call for change has triggered an outpouring of personal emotions. 

Coronavirus quarantine combined with witnessing brutal acts of explicit racism have led so many of us to sit with ourselves and examine our own attitudes and beliefs toward race.

This is heavy work.

And it’s so, so important.

If you feel angry, confused, or even depressed, you’re not alone.

The feelings I’m grappling with most are shame and guilt.

I started to express those feelings in my most recent instagram post:

The response to that post helped me realize that I’m not the only one who feels this way.

My greatest sense of guilt is around Ahmaud Arbery’s story. As a runner myself, this one hit especially close to home.

Even though this story was deeply disturbing, I failed to acknowledge it on my blog or on social media. And I feel like I should have. 

I should have confronted the horror that his story exposed instead of turning from it.

Maybe I had a lot of other projects going on at the time, but when I really sit with it, I can see that I made excuses to avoid it.

Because commenting on the topic of racism made me uncomfortable. And the more I sit with that, the more I can see how that was me contributing to this larger problem.

When it comes down to it, I was afraid of saying the wrong thing. 

Because, no matter how open my mind and my heart are, I’ve only ever experienced the world first-hand as a white woman.

I know that there’s a lot I’m missing because of that. There’s a lot I don’t understand.  

But now I see that, even if I do say the wrong thing and get criticized or corrected for it, I can use that as a learning experience.

I’ll admit, I’ve never made it a priority to educate myself about racism. But, now, I’m committed to learning.

I recommend this podcast as a first step in learning about anti-racism

I’m going to leave off here for now.

But I promise to keep doing the work and checking in here.

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PS – I edited my last post on EFT tapping to remove the link to Jenna Kutcher’s podcast. Recent events have brought to light how poorly Jenna has handled race relations in the past and exposed her as a completely un-relatable, out-of-touch, and self-serving person. I no longer follow her accounts or support her work in any way.

Saying no to what no longer serves your highest self is part of personal development. I’m all for the collective change that’s happening right now and looking forward to building a better future.

Happy [belated] Earth Day, love bugs!

me hugging a tree

Last week, our beautiful planet celebrated her 50th Earth Day.

I hope you hugged a tree! If not, there’s still time.

The weather was rough up in Maine, so I didn’t spend Earth Day exploring or adventuring as I would have liked to.

But I did seed several trays of vegetables and herbs for my garden. I also watched Stephen Colbert interview Michael Moore.

This is the first half of the interview

But I was especially moved by the second half of the interview, where Moore refers to the coronavirus as a “coming attraction” for what’s to come if we don’t change.

The second half of the Michael Moore interview

I love how he compares quarantine to a “time out” for humans. This is exactly how I feel about the situation. It’s like Mother Earth has told us to go to our rooms and think about what we’ve done.

And in the meantime, perpetually grey and smog-filled skies are finally turning blue. Wild animals are reclaiming their space. And, the best news of all, the PANDAS ARE GETTIN IT ON!

This is a crazy time. But it’s also an opportunity to learn and grow.

I hope you’re staying safe and healthy out there.